the face I never want to see...

I know that face. That reaction. That face of guilt. I know that. I recognize that. I saw that before. And I know what it means. It means failure. I failed again. I was wrong again. All this time, I knew. I should've listened to my gut. I already know it will go nowhere. I know I will fail. I know that I will get hurt. Again. I knew. But I was stubborn. It was a stupid idea. I thought it would work. I thought I will be happy at last. But alas, I was wrong. And it sucks. It really does.

I just want to play Skyrim.. :(

I just want to play Skyrim.. I just want to feel how to be powerful and free, being able to make any decision I can make without anyone judging what I do. I just want to kill dragons for fun and to relieve stress. I just want to ride Shadowmere to the top of the throat of the world and look at the view, maybe killing dragons on the way. I just want to wield dual swords and cast magic with 2 hands. I just want to shout "FUS RO DAH!" I just want to save the world. I just want to escape my mediocre life for some measly hours. I just want to play Skyrim. :(